i think i’m just going to go to bed and watch beauty and the beast on youtube and try to savour the night that happened before the awful sad feeling came upon me because that really was lovely and made me want to cry for good reasons and that’s always a good reason to cry 

i snuggled so close and we held hands and we rested our heads on each others shoulders and heads and it was so warm and i don’t know where it came from but he is wonderful and i don’t want this to get complicated

friends can be romantic can’t they

well that happy mood changed far too quickly for my liking

down 
        down
                 down
                         i go

wild-wander: This is like the perfect description of how I felt about my own 18th last night

you must have had a wonderful 18th! happy birthday lovely! x

so i just got back from an eighteenth birthday party and it was honestly the best thing i’ve done in a long time all my good friends were there and the music was loud and the bonfire was warm and lovely and people were nice to snuggle against and i think people took photos of me snuggling but i don’t mind i actually want to see those photos because being close with friends in a romantic way is kinda cute and awesome and i felt so warm and i didn’t want it to end to be quite honest because it all felt so infinite

okay it’s nearly 2pm and now mum wants to take me somewhere because it’s free and we like free admission things so yeah okay that’s cool and it’s an exhibition but i have to get dressed and try to look nice and ugh effort

 dazelikethesee said: I feel your pain

ahhhhh, i actually feel so sick :(

 all-the-ways-we-could-run said: You’ll be ok, you will create something incredibly wonderful <3

charlotte you’re so wonderful, thank you

so to get myself happy and confident with myself for my art major which is scary and irreversible once i start, i’m just doodling and not caring how it turns out in hopes that i can translate this carefreeness into my actual work but i’m still internally screaming as i doodle 

also i’m really bloody cold it’s like my fingers cant function any more and are seizing up and ahhhh i’m so cold maybe i should put a bra on my chest is extra cold okay

WHY IS PAINTING SO NERVE RACKING?????????????? I CANT DO ANYTHING I’M TOO SCARED I’LL MESS UP AND DO IT WRONG AND I’M SO SCARED MY PALMS ARE SWEATING PROFUSELY CAN I JUST NOT DO MY ART MAJOR OH Y GIFHDUJWESD

global concepts - robert delong 

oh my goddddddddddkgfykwrufyuwrjg

another thing that is nice to make you feel better is to snuggle up in bed with the electric blanket and the bedside light on with ‘the princess and the frog’ playing on your laptop 

seriously

something I do every time I go into the bathroom for any reason, is smile in the mirror and it’s a little odd but it can make me feel so much better because the act of smiling actually releases those happy hormones called endorphins(?) and it’s just a cute way to make you feel a little better in such a simple way

if i’m sad i think about how damn good my bum looks and then i’m marginally happier and a bit more cocky about my bum 

yeah