SO IM BACK AT UNI!!!!!! and goddamn it, i saw uni boy from the cafe terrace, walking across the grass below and holy FUCK i thought i was going to pass out: my stomach flipped, my face filled with red and i couldn’t feel my legs ….. am i not capable of doing anything seriously he wasn’t even CLOSE. so whatever whatever, i tried to play it cool and not think about him, then the time came for my lecture and WHADDYA KNOW; he’s in it as well, we eye each other off briefly and i can feel my face SWELLING WITH EMBARRASSMENT and before i know it, we’re in the lecture hall, sitting a few rows away (me being up further so i had a good view heheh) my other friend, Joel, who had been in our class together last semester, was in that lecture too and texted me “i see you” and so afterwards i texted him asking what tute he had and we’re in the same!!!! so we both had an hour before our tute and he told me to come hang out with him and uni boy at the other cafe that is also a bar????? so i went and i found them, with two other girls and another guy. im not gonna lie i was a little threatened by this blonde girl sitting next to uni boy BUT i needn’t be: there wasn’t a seat for me and i said it was fine, but uni boy stood and offered me his chair, saying, “take mine, it’s okay” and i told him it was “fine, really!!! dont worry!!!” but he smiled and insisted and gave me his chair and went out onto the deck to grab another one from outside for himself :’)))))))))) like i just??? and he asked about Winter Magic and said he was sorry he wasn’t able to go and i said it was fine, even though it wasn’t. he wasn’t in the same tute as us, so Joel and i left and immediately he was asking me if me and uni boy had hung out over the break and we hadn’t, so i said so and he was really disappointed!!! he totally wants us together it’s so lovely and ridiculous to have his ~support~. he was really cut by the fact we hadn’t hung out and was saying, “but what about the tension??!!! you guys have a connection!!” and so he’s taken it upon himself to organise a lil coffee date for us next week???? but i dont think he actually will but at the same time it would be hilarious and good for him to make it happen. ALSO uni boy is looking super damn fine: his hair was perfectly curly and styled and he’s got a scruffy beard goin on!!! and what’s great about it is that i didnt see him during the awkward stages of beard growing and so he just looks honestly PERFECT without even trying. im so high on seeing him again after two months, i just cant believe how quickly all these feelings came back!!!! i guess as much as i try, i wont be getting over him that easily …. (IM SO SORRY THIS ISNT UNDER A READ MORE!!!! IM WRITING THIS ON MY IPAD AT UNI AND DOESNT LET ME!!! IM SORRY!)

SO IM BACK AT UNI!!!!!! and goddamn it, i saw uni boy from the cafe terrace, walking across the grass below and holy FUCK i thought i was going to pass out: my stomach flipped, my face filled with red and i couldn’t feel my legs ….. am i not capable of doing anything seriously he wasn’t even CLOSE. so whatever whatever, i tried to play it cool and not think about him, then the time came for my lecture and WHADDYA KNOW; he’s in it as well, we eye each other off briefly and i can feel my face SWELLING WITH EMBARRASSMENT and before i know it, we’re in the lecture hall, sitting a few rows away (me being up further so i had a good view heheh) my other friend, Joel, who had been in our class together last semester, was in that lecture too and texted me “i see you” and so afterwards i texted him asking what tute he had and we’re in the same!!!! so we both had an hour before our tute and he told me to come hang out with him and uni boy at the other cafe that is also a bar????? so i went and i found them, with two other girls and another guy. im not gonna lie i was a little threatened by this blonde girl sitting next to uni boy BUT i needn’t be: there wasn’t a seat for me and i said it was fine, but uni boy stood and offered me his chair, saying, “take mine, it’s okay” and i told him it was “fine, really!!! dont worry!!!” but he smiled and insisted and gave me his chair and went out onto the deck to grab another one from outside for himself :’)))))))))) like i just??? and he asked about Winter Magic and said he was sorry he wasn’t able to go and i said it was fine, even though it wasn’t. he wasn’t in the same tute as us, so Joel and i left and immediately he was asking me if me and uni boy had hung out over the break and we hadn’t, so i said so and he was really disappointed!!! he totally wants us together it’s so lovely and ridiculous to have his ~support~. he was really cut by the fact we hadn’t hung out and was saying, “but what about the tension??!!! you guys have a connection!!” and so he’s taken it upon himself to organise a lil coffee date for us next week???? but i dont think he actually will but at the same time it would be hilarious and good for him to make it happen. ALSO uni boy is looking super damn fine: his hair was perfectly curly and styled and he’s got a scruffy beard goin on!!! and what’s great about it is that i didnt see him during the awkward stages of beard growing and so he just looks honestly PERFECT without even trying. im so high on seeing him again after two months, i just cant believe how quickly all these feelings came back!!!! i guess as much as i try, i wont be getting over him that easily …. (IM SO SORRY THIS ISNT UNDER A READ MORE!!!! IM WRITING THIS ON MY IPAD AT UNI AND DOESNT LET ME!!! IM SORRY!)

fleur-issant:

aesthetically pleasing changeroom

fleur-issant:

aesthetically pleasing changeroom

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wondering why it is always the night before i go back to study related institutions that i have the biggest urge to fulfil all my life goals in one single night // i’m really super excited to go back to uni tomorrow though!! i feel as though i’ve grown and changed as a person over this holiday and i’m just feeling so warm and comfy in my body and in my mind and in MYSELF and it’s a truly great feeling that has stuck around for a while now / on the other side of that, i just had the biggest existential FREAK OUT, and i felt like i was actually noticing the time passing, watching the present disappear through my fingertips into the past like sand through my fingers. i felt like i was being pushed back into the passing moment bc i wasn’t totally aware of the present and now i’m completely freaked out of the whole concept of time bc it doesnt really exist, nothing exists, i dont exist / nothing is real

GRIMY 301.

I’m going to take 301 pictures of boys with make-up. 

In Russia, there is a project which is called “pure 1001”. A photographer takes pictures of girls without make-up. He says, that this is real beauty. Fuck off man, there is no “REAL BEAUTY” all. That’s a joke.

The real beauty is in when people look like who THEY want and also they may be what THEY want. 

You know, here, in Russia, it is TOO hard to look or to be like you want or feel. You can’t be yourself. 

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we live in a world where women are sexualized but can’t be sexual

one of my late night thoughts (via zeeday)

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